I have arrived in Kansas City Missouri, a place I will be calling home for the next 6 months. 

My computer has been broken for weeeks!! I finally made it to the apple store and it was fixed for free. Im pretty excited to start tumblr-ing again even though in my absense I lost 15 followers :(

49 DAY HONESTY CHALLENGE… in one night

1. Your ex texted you and wanted you back. Would you take him/her back? - Unfortunately I think I would. Its hard to let go. 

2. Has anyone told you “forever and ever” then left? - No one actually said it but it was pretty much implied 

3. Your relationship status? - single fo sho

4. Where did you meet your crush(es)? - church….

5. Have you ever lost a close friend? -not by death or anything but we grew apart

6. Do you smoke weed regularly? -gross

7. Think back to the beginning of 2011. Are you still dating the same person? -hahaha why did you make me think back to the beginning of 2011 jerk!

8. Would your parents be mad if you were in a relationship? - nah

9. When was the last time you really laughed? - I laughed a lot today

10. Something is wrong. First guy you turn too? -  Nathan!

11. First girl you’d turn to? - Rachel usually because I can rant to her and it doesnt matter and I dont even have to explain myself lol 

12. Is there anyone who doesn’t like you because of something you did? - certainly

13. Angry at anyone? - nope

14. What’s stopping you from going for the person you like? - Uh he is officially dating someone. But then again I dont know that I even like him anymore. I saw the REAL Jeremiah back in January and I think it sucks. 

15. When was the last time you cried really hard? - The other day. I was super stressed!

16. Is there anyone you would do anything for? - My nephews/niece :)

17. Who was the last person you talked to for more than 10 minutes on the phone? - Jay

18. What is your favorite song? - Currently I am obsessed with Shelter by my friend’s band Willet

19. Do you like Red Bull? - LOVE IT

20. How many people can you tell just about everything to? - Just Rachel I guess

21. Have you ever wished on a shooting star? - I kinda pray on a shooting star lol 

22. Does the last person you held hands with mean something to you? - A little too much </3

23. Describe yourself in one word. - conundrum 

24. Do you have anything that belongs to your ex? - Noo?

25. Can you honestly say you’ve had a sleepover with the opposite gender? - Yup!

26. Do you rebound? - Haha, I am plenty capable of rebounding 

27. Ever cheated on someone? - I wouldnt do that

28. What would you do if you found out the person you like was in a relationship? - He is, stupid. 

29. Do you act differently around the person you like? - Yeah… I try to hard to be the person I know he likes so sometimes I am not myself 

30. Honestly, what guy’s number do you have memorized? - None lol …

31. Is it hard to make you laugh? - Oh no

32. Who was the last person to make you mad? - Stupid freaking Jeremiah during a scrabble game lol who knew scrabble could bring such drama!

33. Do you think your last ex will eventually want to be with you again? - YES

34. Have you ever fallen asleep in someone’s arms? - Yeah :) Its pretty much the most amazing feeling

35. Has anyone ever called you scrumptious before? - Wha?? no..

36. Would you like to put a night on repeat and live it forever? - Yes please

37. Do you have a best friend that knows you inside and out? - Mhmmm

38. Is your best friend a slut? - Well….

39. Is hard drugs a turn off? - yup

40. Are you happy with life right now? - I am stressed and exhausted and my heart is still a tad bit broken apparently… but I wont complain. I am alive and thats what counts. 

41. Are you still in love with your ex? - yah?

42. Are you still in love with your ex? - …no?

43. Have you ever been the “other person” in a relationship? - no

44. Have you ever had your heart broken? - Yessmm

45. Have you ever broken someone’s heart? - I think so, probably lol

46. Is there anybody you’re really disappointed in? - YEAH

47. Where is your best friend? - Who knows.

48. Something you’re happy about? -That I am watching a good movie by myself and just having a relaxing evening for once

49. How is your heart lately? - Its stuck in Missouri

Jeremiah

(Source: give-in-to-me)

so I often wonder why I run FROM him and not TO him. I need to get my act together before I leave for my internship in a month. 

Or maybe, the only thing that can fix whats been broken is time in that prayer room. 

I cannot wait to leave for OTI!

(Source: sockfull-o-buttah)